A Batty Life

Let Go And Let God

Recently I was asked by some really awesome old Disney friends to make a video entry for Oprah’s new Network OWN

I thought about it soooo excitedly!!! Dreaming of my family and I in our own variety talk show. A cross between The Jackson 5 meets Oprah, only not Oprah…ME!!! This could be a show where I not only interview celebrity’s, but a show where I could ask them to spread the cheese, the happy! They could help give ideas, secrets, advice on how they live happily, about how they help the community, the world, themselves!! It would be a show where I could go out and help people, at the same time showing viewers how they can live happy. We all need something to look forward too, we all need a push, a reason to wake up and do the same monotonous thing day after day, and I could help them! Then at the end of each show, my family and I could make a music video, or a funny skit,a commercial, or little movie trailer spoof. It would not only make people laugh, but it could motivate families to do the same thing with their children! I was oozing with excitement thinking faster than ever before, with a HUGE cheesy crazy looking smile painted on my face!

But…. I quickly shook it off doubting myself as most all of us are our own worst enemies judging ourselves. I knew millions of people would be doing this, some that were actors, or have a had experience, more schooling, better looking, ideas that made sense, more friends to vote, and frankly I didn’t really have time to sit and make a video of just myself…

Then, my friends took it a step further making a facebook fan page for my family and I as support

Click here to be a fan!At that point I was totally flattered and thought I can at least give it a try.Having no time to make a big production as I would normally do, being the over doer that I am.. I read the rules, and saw I couldn’t use our music videos, or make one without using the music they had the rights for, and having just talked to my eager friends they said I should make a video and fast! So everything pointed to me making a video of me, being me, with just a little taste of my really cool family

This link below is my actual entry if you want to vote
http://myown.oprah.com/audition/index.html?request=add_video&entity_id=208179153

Things were going GREAT! People were voting, I although wishing I had said more about the “show idea” and changed a few other things, it was OK. I believe in God, and knew, really this is up to him, not winning a show but my future. And I am VERY OK with that .    But then…other people started entering, and getting more votes, and funny video, and more votes, and saying their show ideas, and then passing me BIG time with votes, until I was at the bottom of the food chain!! I started getting upset, feeling embarrassed, and wishing I had done things differently or, not at all.

2 nights ago I decided to give up, Let Go and Let God. After sending out vote 4 me videos, and ignoring my husband when we should have been loving each other, stressing out, and getting down, when I am normally so happy! I knew that this was taking over my head, my life, and in a very unhealthy way. I am so happy I entered, and I pray I make it, but that is really all I need to do at this point, and that is very healthy, and not as hard as stressing at all!

I feel soooo much better now! Like I detoxed and I’m out of the thick fog of worry and woe,and  I am so happy with my choice. There comes a point in all of our lives when really we are powerless, and there is nothing we can do. I go through this often, with the recession, with my jewelry sales, with my husband having to work on Saturdays, the store being out of my fat free ice cram sandwiches! The point is we all need to let go sometimes, although it seems so easy, and uncomfortably comfortable to hold on tightly with some sort of control, its important to be honest with ourselves. It’s not always up to us, and even if your not sure about your faith, to let go is to give yourself a gift.

Anyway thanks for letting me share,and who knows maybe I’ll see you all on TV one day

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